if you want to know me

While scrolling through my daily reads on Bloglovin', I saw a post from one of my favorite blogs, From Portland to Peonies, called "If you really knew me..." and it made me think of all those things that go around on Facebook and stuff where people answer the random questions about themselves.  Normally, I'm not a fan of those, not because they aren't interesting per se, but because I think that Facebook is kind of one of those places where it's mostly people you're already friends with who see it.  But in the case of a blog, I think that doing posts kind of like this is great, because the audience is mostly strangers who, for one reason or another, have taken an interest in you.  And for those who stick with you, and keep reading what you have to say, it's kind of a nice return to appeal to them in a way that's a little more human, if you know what I mean.  Show that you're a real person, not just a face and typed out words, but someone who, hopefully, your readers can relate to.

Sooooo, here I am doing one of these posts, except I've decided to go with "If you want to know me", because really, that's up to you, and I don't expect anyone except maybe my family and close friends to already know all this stuff.

If you want to know me...

...you should know that I have an addictive personality.  I was addicted to Coca-Cola as a kid, and have since replaced it with coffee.  It's one reason why I refuse to smoke, try any sort of drug, etc... besides the fact that they just don't interest me.

...you should know that I don't want children.  I've never really liked them all that much, and I'll be honest and say that I'm way too selfish to ever have a child of my own.  I want to accomplish so much career-wise, and I want to travel the world over, so I don't think a kid would fit into the life I want for myself.

...you should know I've only ever wanted to do something equestrian- or theatre-related.  My very first aspiration was to be a jockey for racehorses.  When I literally outgrew that option, I wanted to compete in 3-day eventing.  Then, I fell in love with acting and for the longest time aspired to be an actress, move to LA, and try my luck there.  It was only a couple years ago that I found stage management, and realized that not only was it a passion of mine, but that I excelled at it more than I had in any other career option I'd dreamed of.

...you should know I used to be overweight for a great amount of my childhood, and only really lost that weight in my senior year of high school, when I got truly and heavily involved in theatre.  I was too busy to overeat and be lazy.  To this day, staying busy is my greatest weapon in staying in shape and eating right.  On a related note...

...you should know that I'm happiest when I have a booked and busy schedule.  I would much rather have so many things on my plate that I can only just juggle it all, than copious amounts of free time.

...you should know my worst habits are products of boredom.

...you should know that I have very OCD-like tendencies, if not a mild-ish form of OCD itself.  For example, the volume number on my car radio or the TV has to be a multiple of five.  And if something can't be symmetrical, it has to at least feel balanced.  I once asked my sister to sit in a different chair in the living room because there was too much on the one side with her in the chair she was in, and when she refused because I was being "unreasonable", I had to get up and leave, because it bothered me so much.

...you should know that I greatly dislike feet.  Particularly bare feet.  I don't know why, but it grosses me out.

...you should know that I'm not a feminist, per se, but I don't like people assuming that I can't lift something or do whatever because I'm a girl.  I will go to certain lengths to prove I can do most things it is assumed a guy has to do.  For example, I can handle power tools, and in fact I really like power tools.   I'm also deceptively strong.  Sometimes it might seem annoying, the fact that I have to prove this, but I don't like people to assume I can't do something.

...you should know that I'm a romantic at heart.  I've been very independent, strong, and secure with myself all my life, and it's hard to let someone else take care of me because I'm so used to taking care of myself, and I don't want it to seem like I can't.  But no matter how hard it is to let go of this contradiction, I still want to be taken care of sometimes.
... you should know that when I was little, I would always ask for a sample of ice cream just for the sole purpose of getting the little sample spoon {because just asking for the little spoon was out of the question, obviously}, and eat my ice cream with it instead of the big spoon.  In fact, you should know that I still do this.  Because little spoons are the best spoons.  Don't ask me why you should know this - you just should.

Semi-deep stuff here, guys.

I feel like I've written a book.

What should I know about you?